A Constant Faith
Love consumes us only in the measure of our self-surrender. -- St. Therese of Lisieux
It's a hard thing to do- say yes to God wholly and truly. I sometimes wonder even how to do so. I know some will contradict me if I say that telling God you give Him your life isn't enough. But I don't think it is. For the past 18 months (since SetFree '10!) I've been saying to God that I devote my self and my life to His will. But I'm not sure if it's enough. See, it's all well and good to be a wonderful holy person when in the presence of other wonderful holy people (at church, youth group, girls' group) but it's so very very much harder to be holy in a sacrilegious society.
Sure, I try my hardest to, as St. Therese did, surrender my self wholly to God's love, but sometimes I wonder if I'm all talk, no walk. It's so easy to slip back into the ways of society, to distance God from your everyday life and then come to (church, youth group, girls' group) and say that you do love Him. For me it is one of the hardest things in my life to be constant in my faith. Sure I say my prayers every night- but then in the morning do I get up and act unkindly to someone? And sure I go to youth group twice a week- but around others do I act as reverent? And sure I go to Mass every Sunday- but then on a Monday do I act blasphemously?
I want God's love to consume me in the measure of my self-surrender. But I want to be able to surrender my whole life to him. Faults, wrongdoings, missteps. I pray that I may have a constant and true faith. That I may have the courage and nobility to resist the temptings of an atheistic society. That I may remain steadfast and ardent in my love of God.
Please pray for me. :-)
It's a hard thing to do- say yes to God wholly and truly. I sometimes wonder even how to do so. I know some will contradict me if I say that telling God you give Him your life isn't enough. But I don't think it is. For the past 18 months (since SetFree '10!) I've been saying to God that I devote my self and my life to His will. But I'm not sure if it's enough. See, it's all well and good to be a wonderful holy person when in the presence of other wonderful holy people (at church, youth group, girls' group) but it's so very very much harder to be holy in a sacrilegious society.
Sure, I try my hardest to, as St. Therese did, surrender my self wholly to God's love, but sometimes I wonder if I'm all talk, no walk. It's so easy to slip back into the ways of society, to distance God from your everyday life and then come to (church, youth group, girls' group) and say that you do love Him. For me it is one of the hardest things in my life to be constant in my faith. Sure I say my prayers every night- but then in the morning do I get up and act unkindly to someone? And sure I go to youth group twice a week- but around others do I act as reverent? And sure I go to Mass every Sunday- but then on a Monday do I act blasphemously?
I want God's love to consume me in the measure of my self-surrender. But I want to be able to surrender my whole life to him. Faults, wrongdoings, missteps. I pray that I may have a constant and true faith. That I may have the courage and nobility to resist the temptings of an atheistic society. That I may remain steadfast and ardent in my love of God.
Please pray for me. :-)
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